Who will be disappointed in me better?

 Who will be disappointed in me better? 

We are all broke inside. 

No one is freely secure from insecurities. 

But why have I expected perfection from a lover? 

Making sure that every human being is imperfect makes a difference. 

I used to expect the ideal qualities from people I got to know. 

The more I discover positive sides, the more firmly I framed the person into an ideal figure. 

However, once I begin to find 'faults' based on my standards, 

I recoiled and second-thought the relationship. 

However, if I am aware of inevitable imperfection, 

the prerequisite of getting to know someone changes into considering if the person is bold and reflective enough to share and embrace one's vulnerabilities with somebody else. 

Striving to be seen as the perfect person worthy of love with a fear of rejection is no longer attractive. 

If both can truly wait for each other's journey to be healed and move forward,

if both are willing to protect one another from harmful sins,

if both people's vulnerabilities can be compatible in terms of understanding and encouraging for the better, 

and if both feel comfortable in expressing honest feelings and thoughts in incessant battles and struggles in life.

Those are truly meaningful reminders to get to know somebody rather than trying to figure out if the person fits me best by noticing strengths, standards, and styles in life and love. 

 That is why I don't need to act perfectly in front of people to be loved. 

Anyway, my insecurities and vulnerabilities are going to be unveiled and people will disappoint at any point. 

The thing is finding out the person who will be disappointed in me in a better way. 

The things following disappointment I hope we have are... 

genuine understanding,

authentic conversation,

relief of revealing true self,

surprise of being embraced just the way we are,

expectation to see the growth of each other,

and feeling worthwhile, grateful, and rewarded by praying, assisting, and witnessing at the closest to how the person evolves.

Therefore, I pray that I can become the person who can find the one whom I truly love and get disappointed with honest care. Of course, I pray again that I can have someone by my side who will not end things due to disappointments but continue the journey of growth together patiently and pleasantly.