I wish

 

I wish

I wish I were able to know 

if the one I miss misses me, either way, or deeper way.

I wish I were able to realize

if it is my plan or life's plan that is interrupting the path I used to stride.

I wish I were able to hold tears

until all my endlessly repeated emotions fade away.

I wish I were able to see myself

through the eyes of the ones whose heart was once hurt or loved by me.

I wish I were able to communicate with nature

so that I can be reminded all the time that all the incomparably dazzling nature was created for me.

I wish I were able to teleport

to relish the same sun, season, and moonlight at the same time,

to prevent all the evil from hurting you when you are sleeping or weeping,

and to secretly whisper to you that you are always being loved and cared for by putting little luck in your way.

I wish I were able to bottle all the memories

in order that I can feel blissful whenever I encounter bitter reality by unfolding sweet memories

and feel humble in whatever I accomplish by uncovering the fact that I owe too much to give all credit to myself.

I wish I were able to live a myth

of everlasting happily after kind of love 

without long nights where grief and gratitude wax and wane.

and without leaving unremovable marks popping up out of the blue. 

I wish I were able to be the best friend for myself,

the best heroine for those who need me,

and the best lover who loves me at his best.