Fear less, fearless

 

Fear less, fearless

To fear less,

feel fear to the fullest.

But remember why you feel that much fear.

I wonder about our last moment.

What it would be.

How much it would hurt.

When it will come to us after all.

The more I am into you,

The more I am into fear.

I count possible and potential sadnesses.

I weigh whether I can handle and endure them or not.

I try to believe we have the strength and love enough to go through. 

What I feel restless, anxious, and afraid of,

life does not inform me in advance.

Maybe that is why I met you in a euphoria unexpectedly.

They say life is too short to spend worrying.

Why don't I look forward to the future positively, not pessimistically?

This is because you are dear my man.

However, this fear might haunt us.

Following us without warning, permeating like an everyday routine,

it stops us from expressing love without doubts.

With the unsolved burdens,

we hide, pretend, and seek the answers 

that we want to hear from each other,

which is impossible to get thoroughly.

What if we change,

What if you give up on this track,

What if I chase you and you run away,

What if our feelings were momentary sparks of lust,

What if life is too harsh to bear despite all the promises and expectations.

Those daylight nightmares eat up our present.

Notwithstanding the fears,

I choose to reveal myself in front of you.

My traumas.

My unfiltered sincerity.

My floating thoughts and feelings.

My constant complaints and thanksgivings.

My faint-heartedness in front of the unknown.

And I stare at your eyes.

I listen to your heartbeats.

Holding you tightly, I concentrate on feeling you.

Then I see similar fears in your trembling pupils.

I hear your voice that struggles to calm me down.

Holding me tightly, you are absorbed in my mind and heart.

The intuition that we are on the same page of fearfulness.

The senses of smell, sound, and skin that we share together at the same time.

The unwavering spotlight and affection toward one another in spite of that angst.

Before long,

they soothe me,

and they soothe us.

Finally,

we end up fearing less.

And we picture ourselves who are fearless in loving each other, facing this whole harsh life.

Eventually,

we get there hand in hand fearlessly someday.