What is following my heart?

 What is following my heart? 

 

It is evidently a cliche nowadays to give advice saying "follow your heart!" to somebody. 

You can read, see, hear, or listen to that phrase too often to ignore, but also to internalize.

How can I follow my heart? What does it look like to live like that? Any 12 steps to follow?

The thing that I have contemplated is 

to follow my true, deepest heart,

I have to take some routes that turn out to be something I dislike or I am bad at. 

A dull repeating day ongoing,

or someday too challenging to handle. 

Being a leader for a community,

or taking a stance of following the lead.

Waiting with worries,

or trying with failures.

To have a feeling about what I desire in my life,

beforehand of it, even though sometimes things became disappointing, 

plans getting ruined, people doubting one's plans and intentions, or higher and higher barriers coming to be, 

we need to remember that those seemingly wasteful and frustrating moments shape and narrow our paths of one's individual unique tastes and talents. 

One folk addressed that 

we never know when how we will end up when and why

so we seriously ponder on "how we want to spend a day."

It depends on one's intrinsic and accumulated character and identity.

There is no grading in the ways of spending days. 

Somebody would prefer being stable to adventurous.

Another would be fond of learning, experiencing, and exploring something new.

Then I would confidently answer that question.

I am longing to spend a day that can potentially be the last time I've got

in inspiring, motivating, and encouraging adolescents. 

I would love to spend my days in exotic but rather secure places 

with a cup of coffee and enlightening book to read.

I cannot wait to have authentic intuitiveness and life stories to prevent myself from catching clouds only with an idealization of what I picture for teenagers.  

I need to put my efforts and affection into someone who deserves and doesn't take it for granted

by expressing appreciation and choosing to love and understand me just the way I am.

To figure out my own solid point of view in directing my days and years,

I have passed a lot of anxieties, disencouragements, unworthiness, and downers. 

Those seemed to block my way and drag me down.

But the very moments made me clarify and sort out what I do not weigh. 

So keep in mind, begging myself because I keep forgetting,

that whenever you feel fruitless, falling behind, and fouled up,

then do not take it as a misstep

but digest it as approximate steps to legitimately pursue my essence and gusto.