Say Goodbyes to Good Memories

 Say Goodbyes to Good Memories

Leave your past behind.

All your sorrows, scars, traumas, and struggles...

Unless you will not be able to get them through and take the next step for the future. 

They say stuff like this.

Just learn from the past and look at the bright future.

It is highlighted the most for them to pass through the hardships. 

Personally, it is half completed to give a piece of advice about how to treat one's past. 

Not to mention bad times, 

we should move on from good memories.

Sometimes, I was daydreaming looking backward at the old times 

that I had blissful moments at those times. 

Unforgettable times that made me flattered and imparadised.

And then all of sudden,

I figured out that I was caught in those high standards of happiness.

Good memories in the past were mostly fantasized ruling out what really happened simultaneously.

Back then, not only merry and thrilling things but also messy and tiring hassles happened. 

However, once my brain's survival mechanism works, I began to sort out something easy to appreciate from the past and it became romanticized. 

The thing is,

because of that distortion,

it became harder to relax and enjoy even subtle daily happy moments like serendipity. 

What is worse,

due to the invented memories of the old times of falling in love with somebody, 

I became more or less unwilling and confused to put feelings happening currently into words of LOVE and HAPPINESS. 

'Is it not a lie to call someone my lover?'

'Am I confident enough to say 'I love you' or 'I feel enchanted',

even though present things feel way below the past feelings I used to have before?'

Without conscious recognition that my bygone feelings and recollections have been sentimentalized,

it is a no-brainer for me to be seriously caught up by the past and not be able to go forward without guilty, comparison, and feelings of scarcity and imperfection.

So I would like to persuade myself that it is time to let go of good memories.

I am blessed enough only to experience those unique euphoria at that point. 

Not it is time to erase all the sources to compare and evaluate based on the past 

and just feel excited to encounter incomparable and unpredictable mirth and blessedness 

with someone new, somewhere exotic, and somewhat breathtaking.

Farewell to my bygone waves of laughter.

Welcome to my upcoming felicity, undubbed and undescribed YET!